Filmmaker Karan Johar says the first sight of his children was the "most surreal overwhelming feeling" of his life.
Karan revealed that his twins - daughter Roohi and son Yash - were born premature.
"When I saw them for the first time, I didn't realise there were tears rolling down. I couldn't believe they were two big pieces of me who are starring at me, who are innocent, vulnerable. It was the most surreal overwhelming emotion I have ever experienced," he says during a session at the India Today Conclave.
Karan says he did not become a father in order to carry forward his family legacy.
"My need to have children was because of my sense of nurturing. I wanted to channelise the love within me. And there was deep amount of loneliness, I felt there was a vacuum that is now filled by my children..
"I would be the mother of my children. I will be both mother and father. I will be more of a mother than father."
The 44-year-old director says like his parents, he too would be supportive to his children and would encourage them in whatever they do in life.
"I cannot be dictating the choices to my children. I don't want them to be filmmakers or run my company if they choose not to be. If they have other choices in life I will encourage that like my parents encouraged me to be a filmmaker," Karan says.
He says his father Yash Johar would have raised some objections over his choices of movies that he made after his demise.
But on his decisions in personal life, Karan says his father would have supported him out of love and affection.
Meanwhile, when he was asked who will be the apt choice to play him if a biopic is made on him, Karan picked up Ranbir Kapoor.
"I think Ranbir Kapoor can play me well as he likes my personality. He can also get my fatso look. To cast my mother will be tough...I think Juhi Chawla can play her. And my father's part can be played by Rishi Kapoor as he is good at changing the looks," he says.