Lena Dunham has 'mixed emotions' on being 'Disease Free'

TV star Lena Dunham is 'Disease Free!' But, she is not exactly happy about it.

After struggling for years with endometriosis, the 30 year-old-actress revealed that she is finally heading towards a healthier life, reports E! Online.

In this week's edition of her 'Lenny Letter', the 'Girls' star wrote, "My [final] surgery went off without a hitch. When I emerged, cotton-mouthed, [Dr. Randy Harris] told me something I hadn't expected to hear, maybe ever: there was no endometriosis left. Between my surgeries and hormonal intervention, I was disease-free."

Adding, "That doesn't mean it can never return, but for now, once my sutures have been removed and my bruises have changed from blue to yellow to green to gone, I will be healthy. All that will remain is my long-term relationship with pain, and it's time to get real about that."

For the unversed, Endometriosis is a painful disorder in which tissue that normally lines the inside of the uterus grows outside the uterus.

The Golden Globe winning actress believes that she had 'mixed feelings' for this moment because all she has known over the last few years was chronic physical pain.

Adding, "My pain-physical-distracted from my deeper pain-emotional, spiritual-and became the ultimate excuse. I had two For the unversed, Endometriosis is a painful disorder in which tissue that normally lines the inside of the uterus grows outside the uterus."

But, now she has decided to use her experience as a means of helping others, who are going through something similar.

"If we've learned anything from the past year, it's that complacency has no business here. So many people who suffer will never have the resources I've had. My job is to educate people, to try to change the pathetic lack of resources for endometriosis, but it's also to seize this gift. I'll be more useful that way. We all would be if we unloaded an old ache"

Lena Dunham concluded her letter by saying, "Love you. Thank you. I'm not wishing you only freedom from pain, but rather the wisdom to know when it's time to let her walk alone.