I tried to kill myself at 15: Wentworth Miller

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Press Trust of India Los Angeles
Last Updated : Sep 09 2013 | 1:20 PM IST
'Prison Break' star Wentworth Miller has revealed that his efforts to conceal his sexual orientation led to multiple suicide attempts.
The 41-year-old actor, who came out as gay earlier in August while taking a public stand against Russia's alleged anti-gay policies, first tried to kill himself at the age of 15, reported Ace Showbiz.
"Every day was a test and there was a thousand ways to fail. A thousand ways to portray yourself to not live up to someone else's standards of what was accepted and what was normal. And when you fail the test, which was guaranteed, there was a price to pay. Emotional, psychological. Physical," Miller said.
"And like many of you I paid that price. The first time I tried to kill myself I was 15. I waited until my family went away for the weekend and I was alone in the house and I swallowed a bottle of pills. I don't remember what happened over the next couple days, but I'm pretty sure come Monday morning I was on a bus back to school pretending everything was fine," he added.
Miller reveals that he kept it private because he was was apprehensive of public's reaction.
"I had multiple opportunities to speak my truth, which is that I was gay, but I chose not to. I was out privately to family and friends -- publicly, I was not. I chose to lie -- when I thought about the possibility of coming out, how that might impact me and the career I worked so hard for, I was filled with fear," he said.
The actor, however, decided to come out through an open letter after declining an invitation to Russia's St Petersburg Film Festival because of the country's conservative stand on homosexuality.
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First Published: Sep 09 2013 | 1:20 PM IST

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